Confused & worried

I don’t know what’s happening, or how this could happen. The amount of love I have for that person is incredible, and I know they feel the same: so why is this weird rift forming?

It’s unexplained tension.

Maybe it’s just getting on for winter, people are tired and stressed and having to face the future. All I know is that I really want things to be okay - they need to be okay. I’ve planned a future and everything just looks empty when you are subtracted from that future. Maybe this is just a natural thing, and just as naturally as it came, it will past.

It’s been almost 14 months. That might just seem like a blip in someone else’s life, but for me it has been the happiest year I’ve had since I was about 7.

And I don’t know what I’ve been feeling. I need to put things in perspective, but right now I don’t know where I’ll stand with you a month from now. I know how I want things to be, but am I simply too afraid to recognize when things are going wrong and need to be ended?

I know what is going to get me through this:

• my sense of self.
• I will not fight anything that happens if it feels right.
• having faith that things will go the way that they are supposed to.

I’ve just got to have a loving outlook, and I have to have an unshakable belief that everything will be fine, no matter what. From there, I just have to let things run their natural course. I can’t revert back to my controlling ways - not that I want to.

It’s cheesy, but if you love something, set it free. If it never comes back, it was never yours.  

Taking care of my body

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(Source: sunshine-0fmylife)